how long can I pretend

not for the mind, not for the body

this can not be healthy

I need to change something

something needs to change

I hope so much for a change next year

just sit and wait?

sit and wait

and waiting and waiting

just waiting

what if

do you need someone to love you

and I wonder if it’s enough to love yourself

I wonder where the love is

but it cannot be all about money

thinking about the future

mixed emotions

why do I feel I did something wrong?